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My gift is not your gift is not their gift is not...ok

Courtesy of  https://www.wattpad.com/ No, I have not been gone for 5 months... Courtesy of  https://giphy.com/gifs/diddy-serious-stare Recently in this mad journey they call life, the mountain I've been learning to conquer, is one of comparison, often leading to jealousy. Now this has often felt like a taboo subject for me, because as soon as you mention to someone you're feeling jealous (not that I've done that, ngl - fear is clearly another, higher mountain we're working on overcoming hehe. Might speak about that one another day), it turns into this terrible sickness you have that no one wants to address because it's awkward. It is awkward to admit that you're jealous of someone or some aspect of another person. We're often made to villainise people who are quote unquote jealous of us, to dismiss them as haters or people that don't have anything better to do with their lives. I Moyosoreoluwa Omoronke Owoseni-Lawal (yes it is, and...
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Loneliness

Source:  https://www.istockphoto.com/gb/photos/standing-out-from-the-crowd You've probably heard the saying that "you can be in a room full of people and still feel lonely". It sounds cliche, but rings so true for so many of us. I've been wanting to make a post about this for months, but have only just found the words to say it (without being mean hahaha). I've recently felt the loneliness that the above quote epitomises. At first, I thought it was me; that maybe I wasn't loud enough or wasn't good at making friends. But one thing I'm learning is not to criticise myself over things I can't necessarily control. I objectively evaluated the situation and found that I'm not too quiet (though I may be introverted) and I'm not awkward (most of the time) nor am I bad at making friends. I kept wondering why I felt like I had a lot of friends yet still felt alone on a day-to-day basis. The first obvious reason is that it's my summer ...

Speak Your Truth

Source: https://giphy.com/gifs/goldenglobes-golden-globes-2018-3o751URIlrafolK8Cc A recent conversation I had got me thinking about how, on social media and even in wider society, we tend to show the best of ourselves, and only the best. This is an obvious perception and perhaps justified in some ways as it would be very strange for the average person to record their breakdowns on social media, especially when it can already be such a toxic environment. We usually run away from social media during the times we're struggling. But what this conversation taught me is how important it is to surround yourself with people with whom you can be open, honest and speak your truth. And I don't mean this in a casual, conversational kind of way where you relate and debate over issues. I mean people you are able to completely bare yourself to. It's hard and takes time to get there with anyone, but I'm starting to learn that it's when we can be completely honest with p...

I Have No Idea

https://tenor.com/view/ellen-ellendegeneres-bekind-oneanother-show-gif-4410719 - A quote that Ellen Degeneres says at the end of every show and a powerful reminder that has always meant so much to me. Lately, I've been very reflective. This reflection has covered many aspects of my life. More specifically, I've come to the realisation that I often complaining about how people have treated me, or offended me. Just me, me and more me. It's always about how I'm the victim. Then one night when I couldn't get to sleep, I decided to watch a video interview on YouTube that I'd seen earlier in the day. It was an interview with Kayla Stoecklein (I'll link it below) who is the wife of Andrew Stoecklein, a pastor who, unfortunately, died by suicide in August last year. I bring up this interview to hone in on one thing she spoke about. She relayed a quote from a sermon Andrew's mother had preached in their church in the months following his death. And this...

I Can't Come and Kill Myself

Source:  https://memegenerator.net/instance/76135101/ Something I've struggled with for as long as I can remember is self-confidence. It is a topic on which there are many books, long and short courses, quotes and steps to help you improve. And when you tell people you don't feel confident about a certain thing, they often tell you not to worry about it, or just to 'believe in yourself', which has always been of great assistance, of course *cries internally*. Despite all the help available, I have still struggled to believe in myself and my talents at the best of times. Sometimes I've felt like I need constant validation (which, of course, is not healthy and doesn't help with building self-confidence ironically - like some sort of sick joke), but this has never been of much help, because after one dosage of validation wears off, I'm left feeling the same way. Now, I decided at one point that I need a remedy to this. I just need to take control a...